Friday, December 4, 2009

One Final Pre-Motherhood Reflection

This morning, I am anxious. Not anxious like panic-y, but anxious/excited. I know all too well what I can expect from today, but beyond that I've got nothing. It's like a fog that only allows you to see to the end of the block and then keeps you blind past that until you approach.

Motherhood is my blind spot. I suppose it is for every woman the first time around. I am so grateful for the opportunity I have for it to be revealed to me over the coming years. I can't wait (tho I have) to meet Baby D. I know last night was my final chance to get a good night's rest, but it was like the ultimate Christmas Eve as a kid and I found myself more restless than ever. I'm excited to see what packaging the Lord has decided to wrap my sweet little spirit in; what she'll look like, sound like.

More than anything, I am so humbled to have been blessed with the honor and opportunity to raise one of Heavenly Father's choice spirits in these latter-days. I am not perfect, and I am not the best qualified, but my answered prayers have assured me that like every other aspect of my life, the Lord will pick up the slack when I fall short if I only ask for His hand after trying my hardest. For this I am eternally grateful.

Hopeful and Humbled,
D

1 comment:

  1. Ah! I am so excited! I feel like it's me that's going in tomorrow!! haha
    It will be wonderful trust me. Drink all the juice they give you, don't be afraid to ask for more painkillers afterwards and don't be scared about the staples. They are seriously nothing. I was so freaked out but it was simple and painless. Write everything down as soon as you are feeling better. I have forgotten a lot about the time in the hospital.
    We love you and are praying for you! Gabe can't wait to meet this future girlfriend. ;)

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